Thursday

Shots OK. Dark chocolate treat.

Wednesday

Appointment for blood work and US this morning. The bloodwork took forever. she couldn't find a vein in either arm. I had to run my hand under warm water and finally she was able to get it out of a spot on the top of my hand, but not after sticking me in the same spot in the elbow she did on Friday. Nice bruise there.

Looks like there are 9 follicles. One lead one at 10. They like to trigger when they are at 18. We go back on Saturday for another US & BW. Hopefully then we'll have a schedule for retrieval.

Last nights treat was blackberry tea. Tonight's was honey for my tea.

Not Well

It's been a bad couple of days. I think I'm coming down with a cold. My ear is plugged and I'm stuffy.

Monday was a bad day all around. I'd rather forget it.

My treat for the painful shots was cashews.

The injections are getting more painful every night. I can't wait for this to be over.

Black Cherry Sunday

The shots of follistim hurt. My stomach stings for a while after. I thought it was because yesterdays shot was not warmed up, but that is not the case. I have a burning belly right now.

Treat for the day: black cherry candle

Trips

So, we went to Martina and Rich's wedding reception and there was a couple there with triplets. I just kept thinking, "I bet they did invitro." It scared the crap out of me. What would I do with three babies. Yes, I would love them, but that would be so hard. Would they all be healthy? Would I have to do selective reduction? I don't think I could. So we left the party to come home and do the shots. I thought about that huge 3 seat stroller the whole time.

Tonights shots really hurt. Maybe over another week of this left. I can do it. There is no turning back now.

Treat for the night was an extra dark chocolate bar with mac. nuts and cranberries. If I wasn't so full from the all the good food at the party, I'd be eating it to help take the sting in my belly away right now!

Nervous Day

Today was the doctors appointment for baseline bloodwork and ultrasound. All looks good and I can begin the follistim tonight. This is very scary. In 2 weeks or less I could be having eggs harvested and our babies could be growing in a petrie dish in a lab! What a hard concept to grasp. I could potentially carry babies that weren't created inside me. wow.

Wonder if two shots means two treats ;-)

ETA: Nope, two shots....one treat. That's OK. Bill's support is the other treat. He has been pretty good through this whole ordeal.

Fat Thursday

I feel fat. I feel like I've gained back every ounce I lost in the last 1.5 years. Not happy.

If all goes according to plan at the doctor tomorrow, I will begin the stims Friday night. Tonight will be the last night of 1-a-day shots. We also have to fork over thousands of dollars to the doctor tomorrow. whatever. i'm so over this.

tonights treat was a people magazine :-)

Wednesday

Shot fine. Treat: Dove Chocolate Bar.
Worried about starting stims on Friday. Really worried.

Tuesday

Had to run out to pick up my truck from the dealer and noticed more things wrong with it on the way home, so it will need to go back tomorrow. I don't need to deal with this crap right now. We stopped for dinner and Bill had 3 beers and he seemed a little loopy, he fell asleep when we got home and I had to wake him at 8pm to give me the shot. I wasn't happy that he was loopy and told him so. He pinched the skin and waited and waited to give the shot. Just get the damn thing over with. It is no fun having a flap of skin pinched and waiting for an injection. I told him no more drinking before shot time. I cried after the shot tonight and Bill just rubbed my arm and didn't say anything. I don't think he knows what to say or do and there is nothing he can do to make it better.

My treat for the day was hibicus tea. A very nice treat.

Make It Quick

We had to do the shot a few minutes before 8pm because I didn't want to miss a minute of Prison Break. Not sure why, but today's shot hurt the most of all the shots so far. I shouldn't complain too much as the side effects of the Lupron have not been as much as I expected. I'm really worried about the stims. I did not do well with Clomid and this is just mega doses of the same stuff. I have experienced mood swings, but what else is new (as Bill would say!)

Dropped my car off at Land Rover Westside so we stopped for dinner on the way home at Prosperity Social Club in Tremont. It was very good creative bar food.

Weekend Shots

Even though I thought I had kept our calendar kind of clear during the IVF process, this weekend was packed. Friday wasn't so bad because we just moved injection time up 30 minutes and we were on our way to see a lounge act, Miss Kitty, at the Velvet Tango Room. In our haste to get out of the house and get some food before the show, we both forgot about my daily treat. That's OK, Bill has been so good with this whole thing that his love is treat enough for me.

Saturday's shot was a bit trickier. Bill has know Tommy since he started DJ'ing at the Brick House 10 years ago. Those were fun times for all of us. It is where Bill and I met 10 years ago, both of us attached to other people at the time. Who knew where it would lead! Tommy hired Bill to do his wedding last night so we were going to have to do the injection on-site. Bill was set up on the stage so at 8pm (perfect timing, speeches were over, the blessing was said, and the dinner music was on auto pilot) we snuck behind the curtains and did the shot via flashlight. I'm sure people have had to do their shots in some creative places, but I hope this is as creative as we are going to have to get. Next Friday starts the 2 injections per day. I want to be home to do those, as I hear the side effects of the one shot are pretty nasty. We'll have to be non-social for a week or more until it is time to harvest all the eggies (hopefully!)

I also got some lemon cookies as my treat for Saturday shot.

Sunday's shot was uneventful, didn't even feel it until after it was done and then there was a slight burn. Treat was cereal bars. (I won't have to grocery shop for a while, if I keep getting food treats!)

Wine Makes It Easier.....

We ate dinner out tonight and I had a glass of wine. I guess it relaxed me because the shot was not as painful as nights past.

My treat for the day was the DVD of Midnight In The Garden of Good and Evil.

Day 4

Not in a creative mood to come up with a quirky title tonight.

It's been an OK day. I didn't have to work today so I did the grocery shopping and hung at home watching movies.

We are selling one of our cars and a guy called about it today. When we hung up, I cried. Damn hormones making so irrationally emotional.

The shot kind of hurt tonight, don't know why. So far Monday's was the best, no pain at all.

My treat for tonight was a rubber dolphin (still on treats from the Florida trip.)

For No (Good) Reason

4pm--Oh boy. The emotional side effects are starting. I'm crying for no real reason. I HATE THIS. I will not go through this ever again.

6pm---still crying.

8pm--not crying, shot is over. Treat for the day was Key Lime Juice from Bill's Florida jaunt. I'll make a key lime pie for us this weekend.

maybe 3 weeks more of this, hope I/we can make it!

T -2 Minutes

2 minutes til injection time...... I took a bath to relax this evening. I'm feeling bloated and I didn't sleep well. Working 3 days a week is a blessing right now. I don't think I could handle a full-time schedule for the next couple of weeks.

shot is over....tonight did not sting like last nights. It was pretty easy. Let's hope the rest are like this one. I didn't cry until Bill gave me my treat.....a postcard of New Smyra Beach (I used to stay there with my parents when I was a kid) and a sand dollar. It's something so small and stupid to some, but to me it is a reminder of the wonderful man I am married to.

One Shot Down.......

Well, we began the journey to invetro (ivf) a couple of weeks ago by me starting BCP's (birth control pills.) It is sure funny to be on the pill when you are desperately trying to conceive, but it is what we need to do for the doctor to take control on the cycle.

Tonight was the first of the injectable drugs. A shot of 10 whatevers of Lupron. I don't want to see the drugs or any of the paraphernalia that goes with it. Bill is in charge of doling out the meds. If I'm a good girl and don't cry I also get a treat after my injection. We decided 8pm will be "go time"since we are usually at home together at that time.

So, as of 8pm tonight, the game began. Shot after shot of Lupron for the next 14 days, tests in 12 days to determine if we can start the next round of shots; the stims..... the ones that make the ovaries bulge with follicles. Doesn't sound so pleasant to me. I'm trying to take it one shot at a time, but I've never claimed to be the most patient of patients.

It is all very scary and exciting at the same time..... in 4 weeks or so we could have little embryo's implanted.... trying to begin their journey to life. After all this poking and prodding, it better work. I'm not going through this stess again!

By the way, my treat for today was pecan logs from Stuckey's. We don't live in the South, but Bill was traveling the last couple of days and he must have picked some up for me. Guess the kid in me is going to look forward to the nightly treat..... probably just as much as I am dreading the nightly shots.